August 09, 2013
I say 'we' because to any woman reading this who is unhappy with their weight - I'm there with you. In fact I'm quite overweight at the moment and I promise that is the last time I use that word to describe myself.
What a less critical and less judgemental person would see when they look at me and know what I've been through this year is a woman who has struggled with a recent set of obstacles thrown at her by life and has turned to food for comfort and fulfilment. She has been there before and will probably go there again, this is not new to her.
Nothing else. It hasn't changed who I fundamentally am nor does it need to define my future. It is my past and my present.
I have a lot of baggage associated with my body image and I know many others do as well.
I also feel less authentic in my profession as a naturopath as I feel I should embody a picture of health. It's unfortunate that 'health' is associated with the slim figure but it is. I don't place any more value or view as more healthy in 'skinny' over 'plump' when I look at others, so why should I judge myself so critically?
Because that's what we do.
That is the whole problem.
I know you don't know me personally but I am just like you.
Full of doubts, insecurities, self admonishment.
I'm hard on myself and I treat others better than I treat myself.
But my main glimmer of hope right now is this awareness.
I need to love who I am at all my stages in this life.
If my outside did not reflect my struggles, my heartache, my achievements, my faults, then what would I use as my yardstick to know what I need to work on?
We have to love this vehicle that houses our very imperfect self and treat it with the utmost kindness and love - just as we would treat our friends, our family, our partner, our sons, daughters and anyone that crosses our path that needed our help.
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